I havn't been on the computer in a very long time sorry bout that, i'm not really living at home.

Mostly i have been at the guys house for the past month, Bob and I are going out now, its still hard to be around raymond, there are still feelings of wanting his hug, but we are both afraid to get to close. I can deal, he's pulled away, not alot tho. Ray has recently told me that he would have went out with me if there was no bob, Now i'm feeling the guilty side, but i think Bob would be better for me. wait, not necassarily better, but...simpler.

I'm having an amazing time with him, he shows me he really cares. I also believe me told me he loved me in french, how hot, but then i had to come all the way to my gramma's in quebec to figure it out. Lol. It makes my heart melt, teehee. Of course it does. Now my only problem is, how do i say it back, do i wait till he says it to me in english, i must know! Because well frankly, i'm stuck in a rut.

I havn't seen ashlynn in a while, things are alright there, need to do something like that. I hate the fact that Ray and her are fighting, well... he's angry with her, its understandable and he know's he's being childish so i will allow him to continue until he feels it is the time to let her back into our lives it appears.

i'm at my gramma's right now... not wanting to be here *tear* Bob was allowed to come, but we only took one car which only allowed 5 people to come so i told my mom next time we had to take two cars because it wasn't fair at that she could have someone to cuddle with and yadda yadda, but anyways, dinner time! hope you have a good thanks giving.